20 Mar


by L. Stewart Marsden

Why are you so weak?
Just what the hell is wrong with you?
Get out of that goddam bed and make your stand!
And . . .
and . . .
and . . .

That’s what I really want to say . . .
To prey upon your sense of guilt . . .
Rekindle your soul so the fire’s rebuilt
and you do whatever will make you whole
and finally finally come back to me.

Don’t you see?
Your frailty is the weakness in me —
and all that I see is a bleak emptiness
where you once rested
before you allowed this — this thing — to best you.

Damn! Why can’t you fling off the covers
and jerk out the needles and tubing and
whatever else is using your life?
And we, longtime lovers
return to the time when living our life
was never so hard, like
so second nature?

Yet you’re quietly, slowly leaving me
setting me free to an unwanted freedom
where I will resist and reject what’s to come
and become of me.

That — you —
are my ultimate frailty.
And when you die
I will cease to exist.

So I will persist to insist that you war and you rage
and resist the temptation to turn the last page.

Do you not hear me now?
Can you not nod or somehow or the other
acknowledge my rage?
Won’t you please rest my fears
with a soft, gentle squeeze or tiny pearled tear
that traces your soft and pale face
and lingers upon your whitening lips
that I bend to and kiss
for the very last time?

Damn you.


4 Responses to “Benediction”

  1. Arlee Bird March 21, 2014 at 1:55 pm #

    Very interesting perspective here. And nothing that I’d say would warrant an adult content rating. If this is as strong as you get then you’re fine without the AC rating.

    An A to Z Co-Host
    Tossing It Out

  2. busymindthinking March 22, 2014 at 10:53 am #

    I wept. This is beautiful, powerful and raw.

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